bizarre morning incidents

as a child i listened to the classical music radio station everyday on the way to school. and so now, as i drive to work, i naturally go to the classical music station as a faint reminder of those days. and i think i just like listening to classical in the mornings. but you know what? everyday now for almost a month, whenever i go to 102.1, they're playing freaking commercials. commercials commercials and more commercials. it makes me so angry. anyone who knows me knows that i hate commercials. i hate excess noise, and commercials are excess noise. it's incredible how media companies make money.

i also realized that i'm very sensitive to little things. aka - i think i'm a control freak. when things don't go my way, i get very upset. today, as i was driving from a breakfast meeting to work i just randomly started crying. frustrated that i have no control over my life, that there's so much uncertainty, that even when i try so hard to make things the way i want it other things and other ppl just go and f*ck it all up. and then i got a grip.

ran into an ex- on the street today. i haven't seen him in almost five years. he's married now, and things btw us didn't end well, to say the least. so there i was, walking down the street in downtown PA - i see him and i do this doubletake. i'd always wondered why i haven't run into him yet since i've moved back, and there he was, walking with some other random guy, maybe an interview, maybe not. he looked the same, wearing the same bright blue shirt, khaki cargo pants and new fobby glasses. we made brief eye contact, i opened my mouth to say hello and raised my hand to wave at him when i realized that he was simply going to walk by as if he had NEVER SEEN ME BEFORE in his life. And that's exactly what he did. shocked as i was, it didn't really surprise me. now my coworker just thinks i have turrets. but i saw him. that's pretty cool. he's thinner now. shorter than i remembered. i'm glad i looked cute today. and i'm glad he's happy. and that's life.